For real?

Have you ever just had one of those day? Like the day started out pretty ok but then at the end of the day you are like, “what the crap?” Yep, I had one of those days.

I simply was getting up early (very early) to take my mom to work because she had hit a deer and was still looking to buy one. The timing worked out perfectly because I had an allergy testing appointment at 8 am so I would just be early for my appointment. Everything went fine and I was able to go through the 39 needle pokes on my arms and had no trouble, or so I thought I was having no trouble.

I decided to stay in town and go to the grocery store for a couple of things before heading home. I had stopped for some gas and I started to feel a tightness in my chest that was not normal. I thought maybe I was just worried and kept doing what I was doing. The tightness continued to get worse so I decided to stop and visit my mother in the ER. When I told her what was going on she demanded that I be seen for a possible allergic reaction.

When I took the allergy testing, they told me if I experienced any of the symptoms I was having to go straight to the emergency room. Well, when I gave a list of the meds I take they figured out I have depression/ anxiety that I am treated for on a daily basis so stopped treating my like I was have an allergic reaction and starting telling me it was anxiety. Gave me some IV meds and sent me home. My dad had to leave work and drive me home because of the meds.

My life is never dull so when I got home I had to immediately leave and go to another town to the bank and to get gas in the car. While we were getting gas, I noticed that my throat felt tight and the feeling in my chest was back so I called the allergy doctor and they told me to take some liquid Benadryl and go to the ER. So from one town back to another town to go back to the ER. Same problems, same APRN.

Now, I am not a doctor. I have no medical training. However I have always done a great deal of research about things and have many members of my family as well as friends in the medical field so I am not an idiot. I know what happens with a panic attack and how my body reacts on a daily basis. My chest was tight. My throat was swollen. I had an allergen test showing the very common allergens I am allergic to, many of which are blooming right now. I was told anxiety, given a breathing treatment, given IV anxiety meds, and sent home.

I swear. There are no words for the anger I felt when I woke up this morning and the meds had worn off enough I could wake up. I had a terrible sinus headache that was from all the allergens I had been breathing in not to mention had been injected into my arms. BUT I WAS TREATED FOR ANXITEY.

I am very passionate about the need to normalize mental health because there are so many that suffer who shouldn’t. I had no idea the amount of issues I had growing up that have been solved with the addition of the correct medication for my mind. I don’t naturally make the chemical that others make for my mind to process and deal with things like other can. Does this make me less of a Christian? Heavens no! Sometimes the Lord chooses to heal us through faith in him but sometimes he choose to heal us though his faith in the doctor.

The problem is that the rest of the world needs to understand that my mental health is just part of my whole story. I can promise that I would never go to the ER for a panic attack because I know what those are and how they feel. I would go to the ER after having allergy testing done and having tightness of chest, dizziness, and throat tightness. Especially if that is what the doctor has to me to do. Poor medical service has made me angry and when I am angry I will push until there is change.

Don’t let people label you! Don’t let anyone tell you that because of one thing you will never be another. You are a child of the Most High King so step out, adjust your crown and keep going!


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